湾

        这几天湾可真多……
        今天早晨起来,在七家湾吃的锅贴,牛肉做的,有点油,味道还不错。还喝了牛肉汤。小身体，顿时热了起来～好多事情要靠牛肉得劲去跑呢。工作么，就是这样补充，付出。
        昨天在蓝湾吃的饭，路过了铜锣湾，又路过了台湾，吴伯雄去中山陵看了孙中山。
        很奇怪，这些日子，脑子里和眼前一直在想，一直在飘“湾”这个字。
        什么是湾？水流来流去并不自由，最后堆积在一个地方，流的很慢了，很缓了，就是湾。
        一般湾都挺大的，比弯大。
        那天去草原，还下雪了，雪粒子打在脸上特疼～。突然眼前看到一个很大的湾，我以前以为湾，特别平，这次看来湾也是有波浪的，远看像好多小白鱼在跳，。我从来没有认真的走进湾，也从来没有看过湾。在水系的记忆里，我只认识江河湖海三个字。这次加了湾，觉得多了一种水。湾特别美，很静，很近。走近她，我心里有一种说不出来的爱，才知道江河湖海不是我想要的，湾是我一直要找的～
        先从河说起，小时候家离沂河特别近，爸爸常带我去放风筝，逮蝌蚪，挖沙子玩，我看到水就特别高兴，就不想回去。每次回去，都是一步一回头，现在想想，像电影里的画面，挺搞笑的，但是很真实。当然了，我们家离海也很近，不过到海边玩，花的时间要比去河边花的时间长。海大呀～，看到海我就想吃海鲜，还想骑海马，还想把沙子放在脚丫子里挤，说真的我不喜欢挤沙子，特痒，难受。
        后来家搬到长江边，这次家搬的远，后来又在长江路的画室，长江路特漂亮，总统府，大会堂，美术馆，1912。
        没在湖边住过，去年去青海湖，我感觉这湖就是海，一点不像湖，应该叫青海海~，比较贴切。有的时候，我会去紫霞湖，玄武湖玩~。
        那年夏天夜里去西湖，雨朦朦，雾朦朦，坐在西湖边上，有一种特别不一样的感觉，很奇怪的感觉，我觉得我百年以后应该住在西湖边上的柳树下。想到这特别安心，这个想法至今未改。
        江河湖海，是个美丽的名字，像幻想～～
        江湖可不是，人们一说到江湖都有点，不知该怎么说。是人生？是故事？是经历？是磨难？。。。。、。江湖由我来说，特别不合适，有些朋友会说：“江湖！！你懂吗？！”我不懂。我也不想懂。
        但是我想知道江湖。江湖像故事。他是别人的经历，特别不容易的经历。传给我们听得时候，变成了故事，好像很轻淡的样子。其实每一个故事的背后，可能都是代价。所以，江湖是代价的江湖，绝对没有风平浪静，没有声音的时候，可能最可怕。
        一个人的痛是干痛，痛是一种对比。因为太静了，所有的东西都被反衬出来，比方说，用精神思考想出来得痛，就不是一个人的痛，是被衬出来的痛，所以有时候很难忍。比如，当幸福来敲门，也是衬托的结果。幸福很珍贵，幸福很难得。
        江湖里有很多传说，传说多了就不得不让你去迷恋和相信，那些走过江湖的人，是痛苦的人也或是潇洒的人。英雄总是有苦难撑着，并且是能够走出苦难的人。所以受人尊重和爱戴。
        江湖  江湖不就是江和湖么
        确实绕了个弯～花应该多看看我。有点怪怪的吧，！
        我其实只想说湾，女人想要得就是港湾，只是这好像是一句很概念的话，一点都不打动人，那怎么才能打动人呢？女人的世界不在江湖，女人的世界应该在港湾，也不行，到底怎么说好？想起来了，女人适合在港湾好好的活着。女人都到港湾来，行么？知道了，每个女人应该有她自己的一个港湾，漂亮的和不漂亮的都应该有。
我的港湾呢？在哪呢～

These days so many harbors…
This morning, in the Seven domestic harbor I ate pot stickers, minced beef, it was a bit oily, tastes good. Drank beef soup, body immediately heated, I must depend on the little beef to deal with a lot of things? Work is this complement, payment.
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Yesterday in blue harbor ate, passed Causeway Bay, and passed to Taiwan, Wu Boxiong saw Sun Yat-sen to Sun Yat-sen Mausoleum.
Strangely, these days, in my mind and eyes have been always thinking, has been floating "bay" this word. ...
General bay are quite large, larger than bent.
That day to grassland, it was snow, snow particle beat on my face a bad pain ~. Suddenly saw a big bay, I had thought bay was special flat in the past, this seeing bay also has the waves, far look like many small white fish jumped in. I have never seriously gone around bay, also have never seen bay. In water system memories, I only know rivers, lake and sea three words. This added bay, think many a kind of water. Bay is especially beautiful, so quiet, so close. Approached her, in the mind has an unspeakable love, just know rivers, lakes and sea are not what I would like, bay is I have been looking for.
Start from the river, my childhood home was very closed to Yi River, father used to take me to fly a kite, caught tadpoles, dug sand, I saw the water very glad, didn't want to go back. Each went home is a step with a back, now thinking, like a movie screen, a pretty funny, but it's true. Of course, our house is near the sea, but going to seaside spend more time than going to riverside. The sea is very large, seeing the sea I want to eat seafood, still want to ride the hippocampus, still want to squeeze the sand on foot, seriously I don't like squeeze sand, especially the itching, afflictive.
Later my family moved to the Changjiang River, the family moved far, and later built the studio at the Yangtze River Road, the Yangtze River Road especially beautiful, the presidential palace, the City Hall, museum, 1912.
Don't live in the lake, last year to Qinghai Lake, I feel this lake is the sea, and not a bit like lake, should call Qinghai sea ~, compare apt. Sometimes, I'll go to the Zixia Lake, The Xuanwu Lake to play.
That summer night to the West Lake, rain fine, fog hazy, sat on the edge West Lake, have a kind of special different sense, very strange feeling, I thought that I should live under willow tree the edge of the West Lake after hundred years. Think of this special secure, this idea has not changed.
Rivers, lakes and seas, is a beautiful name, like fantasy ~ 
River and lake is, people say to the river and lake, do not know how to say it. Is life? Is the story? Is experience? Is suffering? ... By me, special inappropriate, some friends will say: "River and lake! You understand?!" I don't understand. I don't want to know.
But I wanted to know river and lake. River and lake like stories. He is the experience of others, especially not easy experience. We could hear the experience, into a story, seem very light. Actually each one story behind, may be the price. So, river and lake is the cost of river and lake, absolutely don't have not calm, no sound, perhaps the most terrible.
A person's pain is the pain but unable to do anything, the pain is a kind of contrast. Because it's too quiet, everything is structuring out, for example, the pain thought up by spirit, is not a person's pain, were lined out of pain, so it is sometimes hard to endure. For example, when happiness knocks, also foil results. Happiness is rarity, happy is very rare.
River and lake just is river and lake.
Indeed around the corner. Flower should look at me. A bit strange!
Actually, I just wanted to say that bay, women want is the harbor, just this seems to be a concept of words, did not move the person, that how to move the person? Women's world is not river and lake, women's world should be in the harbor, also not, how to say? Think of it, woman suits to live in the harbor. Women all go to harbor, do you? Know, every woman should have her own harbor, beautiful and not beautiful all should have.
Where is my harbor?