一朵云

        小的时候想过的一个问题~~~~，云为什么会在天上，很自由~··~~，很舒服，会不会掉下来？长大以后坐飞机，和上很高的山，都看到云掉下来了。原来云是有高度的。到底有多高，真说不准，看你有多高，它才有多低呢。云是人的朋友，云是人的伴，云也是人的对手、较量。

        云其实是人吹出来的一口气，心气儿，冬天的时候，那个心气特明显，夏天的时候也特明显，看不到，能感到。

        最感动我的一朵云是前年去张掖在如镜的湖面上，飘浮着一朵云~~~，很长时间。应该说一个上午，它都在陪伴我们，那天天上特别蓝，蓝的想让人流眼泪，什么都没有，就一朵云，看着我们。那是一朵祥云~~后来我一直想着它，画了它，把我的心和它对接了，那张画就叫《一朵云》。我很喜欢那张画，做了展览，题目也叫《一朵云》，那也是我的第一个个展。

        一年过去了，怎么才能概括这一年呢？用做多少事概括？还是用挣多少钱概括？交多少朋友？画多少画？睡多少懒觉？出多少门？见多少人？一回头发现，这一年一天也没闲着，这事啊~忙啥呢！

        有一件事是特殊的。就是我今年第一次开始穿高跟鞋，挺高的跟，刚开始穿都不会走路，觉得自己高出来一大节，晃来晃去的，有点不稳。有些老朋友见到我，说我变了，也不知哪变了，就说我长大了，后来发现我长高了，是那高跟闹的，虚假的高度。我一直以为我不适合穿高跟鞋，穿平底鞋好像鞋是在我身上，和我是一体的，很自然，很舒服，所以没想过高跟的事。真的穿了高跟鞋以后，发现一伸手自己好像能够到天上的云。所以，发明高跟鞋的人一定是有目的的，肯定跟云有关。

        穿高跟鞋真的很美吗？
 
        今年画的最多的是玉兰花，画的投入，自己像进入到了花中，玉兰花是报恩的花，挺纯洁的，很向上，它其实今年一直在激励着我，对，我也不想辜负它。有一张我最喜欢的画被人抢走了，可能她比我更喜欢吧，我力气小。后来我也想明白了，画是自己画出来的，其实都是别人的。舍得舍不得都是别人的。这可能是艺术的真谛吧！艺术就是真诚，奉献！还能有什么呢？艺术不是用来换钱的。

        选择艺术已经命中注定，必须把自己的生命交给艺术，无怨无悔，真的是这样子的。今天，又为我的今年的开始，画了一幅和玉兰花有关系的玉兰画。心情特别不同，可能想总结一下吧。所有的心路历程都在这张画里了，。。。。花....云。。。好吧，这才叫知己..........。

When I was a child, I often think about the question: why clouds are in the sky? They are free and very comfortable. Will they fall down? As I grew up, I have the chances to take plans and climb up mountains. I find that clouds can fall down. Clouds are very high, which nobody can count. Clouds are human’s friends and partners. But they are also human’s competitors.
Clouds are breath of human, from people’s heart. The breath is both visible in winter and invisible in summer. But people can feel the breath in summer.
A cloud that moved me the most is one on the lake of Zhangye. That cloud accompanied me for the whole noon. The sky was blue, which made me moved. It was clear on the sky, except that cloud. It was a lucky cloud. After I went back, I always thought of that cloud. Then I drew the cloud, connecting my mind with it. The topic of the painting is “A Cloud”. And it is also the theme of my exhibition.
One year pasted. How to summarize that year? How many stories of that year? And how much I have earned? How many new friends? How many paintings? How many naps? How many places I have been? How many persons I have met? It was a busy year. What I worked for?
A special thing in this year, which is I wear high heels for my first time. It is very high. It’s difficult for me to walk with high heels. I feel I am taller. And I can not keep my footing. Some old friends said me that I had changed and matured. That was the reason of the high heels. It was not a real height. I don’t like high heels. I like to wear flat shoes. It seems that the flat shoes are a part of my body. It is comfortable. But when I wore high heels, I found that I could nearly touch the clouds in the sky. Maybe that’s the purpose of inventing high heels. High heels have some relations with clouds.
Is wearing high-heeled shoes really beautiful?
This year the most painting is magnolia flower, painting the input, myself like entering into the flower, magnolia flower is grateful flowers, pretty pure, very upward, it actually have been inspired me this year, I also don't want to disappoint it. There is a picture of my favorite robbed, maybe she more like it, my strength is small. Afterwards, I also understand, the pictures are I painted, actually are all other people. Be willing to or not willing to part with all is the others. This may be the essence of art! Art is sincere, devotion! What still can have? Art is not used to change.
Choosing the art preordained destiny, we must put our own lives to art, complaint and regret, really is like that. Today, and for my beginning of this year, painted a picture relational magnolia. Special different mood, I may want to sum up it. All mind journey in this picture. Flower...Cloud... Well, it's the bosom friend.